Frightening

Sometimes i get so scared that my hands shake and i slip into a state of euphoria ....its like that deafening fear that cripples all of your senses yet somehow you're still able to function.

It happens mostly when i stand up in front of people and speak or say something that maybe i shouldn't have.
I remember when i was arrested for possession of marijuana . We were at a club in Durban late one saturday night . My best friend thought it would be cool if we organized two joints , one for each of us . I was against it but i lent him the money . Anyway we ended up smoking one between the two of us . We had just finished when a police van drove passed us . I told my mate " you had better chuck that roach because those cops are gonna come back this way " he didn't believe me and sure enough back they came and pulled up right next to us .

He threw the joint on the ground next to us . Later we would learn that any drugs found within 1,5m of a person counts as possession.

Long story short , we ended up being thrown in the back of the van . I had been trying my best to talk to the officer and try to get out of this one . Normally i can sweet talk my way out of anything . Not this time ....i was high of my ass , pumped with adrenaline and basically scared shitless .

We didn't get charged. The cop just wanted to scare us so that we wouldn't ever  do it again. But im not thankful , he was the nastiest motherfucker i have ever come across . No compassion at all ! i know we were in the wrong but still at least have some sense of basic human to human compassion .

Every time i see a cop car i shit myself .....literally

united states of fuck yeah!!

ahahahahahaha!!!!! , i see that i no longer have any views from America . Dont get upset guys!. I know that in my last post i did refer to you guys as internet sluts but thats no reason why we can still be friends .

Marriage and Divorce

A few days ago i was having an interesting convo with one of the photography students. We were talking about tattoos and what we wanted to get done and who we thought had really cool ink.
He told me that when he gets hitched he'll get a wedding band tattoo rather than a ring because he believes that marriage is eternal , you're not in it for the short term .

We went on to talk about marriage. his parents are divorced and have new partners . He told me that he doesnt understand why the is such a thing as legal marriage if we can just get divorced . I dont share this belief but i do think that its an interesting belief .

Marriage should be an optional he says , not official . People should be recognized as legal partners regardless of there marital status .

its a really far out notion but maybe theres some sense to it ? - I dont know ....